Every time I think I'm getting closer to opening my hand made shop, I seem to stall again. I was reading book two of Genevieve Cogman's 'The Invisible Library' series, 'The Masked City' and there was a part I really identified with.
I didn't highlight the exact part of the text to come back to, so you'll have to bear with me on my sketchy memory! The book is fantasy, full of faeries and magic so I'll try to explain as best I can. Irene, the main character is trying to reason with one of the faeries that is a horse but is posing as a train. Whilst inside the train, she needs to get through to the engine room. She is talking to the horse and trying to bargain with it to open it's doors to let her through. This may sound confusing but the main revelation is coming up so bear with me!
If you love books, fantasy, faeries and dragons then this series is for you!
She is walking towards the engine doors as she's talking but as she moves, the doors move with her. The doors are far away and remain in the distance no matter how much she walks.
When she says the right thing, the doors jump closer to her. Until eventually, she finally finds herself right there in front of them.
I can identify with this. I feel like my goal post is there in the distance, it's tantalisingly close. Yet, still out of reach. And just as in the book, she's talking to the horse and trying to bargain with it, in my walk with God it is the same! Because of course I am in relationship with Him so I am constantly praying and talking with God about my dream of having my very own handmade business.
After having a year off work to recover from ptsd (post traumatic stress disorder which you can read more in this post - http://www.justcreativejulia.co.uk/blog/my-anxiety-and-post-traumatic-stress-disorder). Plus my journey with my son's ABL disorder that caused the ptsd! I am back at work. Part time albeit but thankful things are moving on.
So now my focus is on my job as a Reading Assistant which I am so enjoying. My focus is also on looking after my nearly 3 year old boy. After everything we've been through with his rare genetic disorder, and the worst is over, it's definitely a time to enjoy him!
So as much as that dream is still there, floating in the distance. Like the goal post seeming so elusive. It's still there and I trust my handmade business will happen one day. Just not right now.
I believe in God's timing and it is perfect. I won't need to strive to get everything up and running. It will just happen and it will all slot into place really easily. I will know when the time is right. I trust His promises.
Also, we go through seasons. And, as frustrating as it is to think it's still not yet, I'm still at peace knowing that my season right now is my part time job and enjoying my son.
So if you are still waiting for something to happen, trust His timing. If you know you have done all you can do, then be patient and trust it will come to pass.
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