Mental health can be such a taboo subject but the more we talk about it, the more people can understand it. I've suffered from bi-polar disorder in the past and I believe I am now healed from it. Have been off medication since 2005 and in the last three or four years I have been learning with God how best to control it and maintain an even level. That was a long journey in itself, I found I was claiming my identity in the disorder, using phrases such as 'I am bi-polar'. I had to accept that that wasn't what made me who I am, yes I can be eccentric and yes I can be equally depressive. But actually, my identity is in God. I'm not bi-polar, I am a princess of God, His precious daughter, of which His love covers all.
So the niggles I mentioned were about balance. And my past affliction was being challenged. I've had about three, four days of being on a buzz then crash cycle, every other day and it took until yesterday for God to break through and cut through the lies. And as God is great at turning things to good, a poem came out of it. Afterwards I did a simple Google image search with the words 'Jesus is my balance' to check and confirm what I felt God was saying. This image with the scales is what came up and a great article that confirmed other things I've been hearing from God lately. Link to this article is at the bottom of the page.
Those of you following my Facebook page, I put a post up about my prayerful 'motto' for 2015 and I felt God say it was 'intimacy'. To attend to my relationship with Him and allow all the things I want to change to flow from there. The Jesus balance article makes reference to Matthew 6:33 about 'seek first the Kingdom and the rest shall be given to you'. If anyone has heard of Heidi Baker, I also read her prophetic vision for the UK yesterday, after I'd written the poem. We are about to come into the biggest revival in the history of Church! The biggest wave of His radical love for centuries. It is such an exciting time.
But equally, I feel, it is an intense time for spiritual attacks. If the Church is getting stronger, and those steadfast Christians out there are intent on holding onto God, no matter what the cost, then think how the devil is going to like that! He will try everything to tear us away from our loving Father God. My fellows brothers and sisters in Christ, be wise to the works of the enemy. We are in a time of patient endurance. Enduring any spiritual battles, waiting patiently for the return of Jesus. And I'm not afraid to say, I think it will happen in something like 100 years, we are that close! The significance of this revival is that God is preparing us to live fully in His presence.
So, to encourage you in your walk with Him, here is the poem.
Floating around in sin,
Feeling like I'll never win,
Doing the wrong thing.
Instead, I need to sing!
Sing of all my Father God has done.
After all, victory is won.
Bring it back to the cross,
Then I won't be at a loss.
Balance is what I need,
But only with Jesus will I succeed.
Only with God's vision
Will I find precision.
On His promises I will stand,
For I trust in His plan.
On the path of endurance I must stay,
If I give up, I will stray.
Shekinah glory feels hard to achieve,
By my faith I must believe.
He never lets go of me,
But I must not let go of Him.
'People of the Presence' photo - http://www.bible-reflections.net/resource/what-does-the-bible-say-about-heaven/3095/
Talking of revival, this article gives a great reference to Revelation 21:3 talking about God dwelling with us. This gives a good connection to explaining what 'Shekinah glory' means. It is simply the fullness of God's presence, living our day to day lives from that place of dwelling with Jesus. And ties in with the Matthew scripture about focusing first on the Kingdom and allowing all to flow from there.
'Following Jesus and the Myth of Balance' photo and article about being effective in our walk with God - http://blog.yanceyarrington.com/2014/07/19/following-jesus-and-the-myth-of-balance/
'Technology eye vision' photo - http://cs.brown.edu/courses/cs143/
Article and transcript of Heidi Baker's prophetic word over the UK, given in November 2014 -